In this moment, there was just so much going on. When all of a sudden, I got a message. I looked at the name of who it was from, my world just stopped. I don’t know why. Who was it you may ask? Someone who used to make me happy and giggly. Who gave me butterflies whenever we were together. Someone I thought I loved. Someone confused. Who broke my heart and stomped all over it. He asked for an adventure. And I was curious so I went with him. I got into his little, silver Acura. He was covered in his favorite homemade Laker blanket. While he was driving, he grabbed my hand. I tried to keep him warm because he was just so cold. When we got to his place, we continued talking about life. Then I turned to him while I was talking and he just kissed me. It was like one of those perfect scenes from a movie. I missed to warmth of his lips against mine. But something just wasn’t right. It wasn’t the same like before. There were no more butterflies. No more fireworks. I tried so hard to enjoy it but couldn’t get myself to. All those old feelings…poof…gone. The one person I just couldn’t get over. Done. What I feared most became reality. The hope that I once had was no longer there. It hurts to see that it has come to this. I no longer have to try anymore. I don’t want to force something when there’s nothing left especially when he’s not willing to put up a fight. Things will never be the same. Right now, my brain is being drowned of memories. The old memories that we once shared. It just doesn’t stop. I sit here, with no regrets. Just many lessons learned.
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